I often think about my wedding day. The pain I felt. How uneasy I was. How I knew I would always have regrets about that day. You would never think that marrying the GREATEST girl in the world would stir up these negative thoughts , but when I look at pictures of that day, I can't help it. And though the big question that day was "Do you take this woman....", there was always another question lurking in the back of my mind. It was "how much do I wish I looked like I did 3 years ago, on this day?". Pictures are a reminder of how I wasn't my best, on the best day of my life. I don't want to ever feel this way again. I've made the decision (once again) that I need to make some changes, but this time, make them for good. I am married now. I have a house, a wife who loves me, a great family, an amazing support network of friends, and a dream of starting my own family. I have reasons... more then ever before, to take my life back...
The goal is to lose 100 lbs by the end of 2013. I know that I can do it, as I've lost weight in the past. I also know that it will not be an easy task. The truth is that I've let myself go over the past 4 years. I can blame starting work on why I got fat again, as well as injuries and stress. When it comes down to it, the reason that I am fat is that I have not adapted.
Life gets harder and things change, and you have to adapt or roll with the punches. I know that. I've always known that. But knowing something is different then actually doing it. Yes, stress, injuries and time are always roadblocks to where you want to get to, but they are always gonna be there. I need to learn how not only work around these, but work with them, because they are part of my life regardless of what I think. In the past, whenever I decided to lose weight again, I'd start out of the gate with my same training and diet routine that I did when I was fit, only to realize that it is too much for me, and then quit.
This time around, these changes are going to be smarter. I will be strict with my diet and training, but they will be changes that I know that I can keep up with for the rest of my life. Yes, the design for the first 50 lbs will be more rigid, as I really want to get out of what I feel is a 'red zone' in my health, but I will always be cognicant of what I need to do to get where I want to be, and what I need to do to make sure it is a part of my lifestyle.
So with my blog started, my warmup period done, and a ton of motivation... let's begin.
